Monday, November 4, 2013

Maal Hijrah

Fuhfuhfuh *habuk berterbangan di udara*
oh rindunya blog. aaaachamm! *banyaknya habuk*
Assalamualikum*big smile* hidup lagi korang.
basically,

BISMILAHIRAHMANIRAHIM.
Salam Maal Hijrah.Tahun baru,azam baru ye dok? tapi azam aku still sama. menunggu pinangan dari manusia bernama lelaki. Hahaha. tak adalah. aku masih strunggle untuk masa hadapan. basically bila kita cakap pasal awal tahun, one thing will cross our mind is about our wish and HIJRAH.

hijrah semua nak berubah ke arah kebaikan.one thing yang aku nak share sebelum nak berubah, ubah solat kita dulu. Maksud aku,

  • jika kau jenis payah nak solat, cuba kau perlahan-lahan solat penuh.
  • jika kau jenis solat lambat, masuk zohor pukul 1, pukul 3.50 lebih baru nak ambik wudhuk, cuba-cubalah try solat awal.
  • jika kau jenis syok solat sorang-sorang, try solat jemaah.
Dan ditanya kepada Nabi Muhammad: "apakah amalan yang terbaik?". 
maka, jawab Nabi: "solat di awal waktu"
                                                                        -Riwayat At-Tarmidzi dan Abu Daud,Albani: Sohih-

mesti ada yang tertanya, MACAM MANA NAK MOTIVATE DIRI SUPAYA BUAT PERKARA DI ATAS? Bagusss, soalan yang bagus. maksudnya kau masih ada iman nak insaf. hehe
macam ini, commonlah. bila azan, semua kelam-kabut slowkan volume tv,radia,video sebab konon-konon nak hormat azan. pastu, yang tak boleh bla, boleh jawab azan pastu tak solat*merujuk pada diri sendiri*
ini semua poyo. untuk mengatasi masalah di sini. kalau yang tengah baring,cuba duduk. fikir sejenak. Allah sebenarnya lepas azan Allah tunggu kita solat.
bayangkan kalau azan pukul 1, pukul 3.50 lebih kelam kabut baru nak ambik wudhuk. korg tahu x Allah tunggu kita. manalah hamba ku bernama di polan ni tak sembah-sembah aku.
 tak kesian ke, Allah yang bagi kau nikmat. tapi, kau alpa.

berbalik pada impian pulak, aku ada impian. dah setahun lebih aku tunggu masih belum dapat. sedih jugaklah tapi nak kata usaha aku x banyak lagi. so aku kena strive harder sikit. and all of sudden, wujud sesuatu dalam hati ini. yang pasti impian yang aku x pasti aku layak untuk mendapatkannya atau tidak.

apapun. berubahlah ke arah kebaikan ^^.




Monday, February 13, 2012

I miss u very much,my dear:(

assalamualikum,
may allah bless u reader:) and always be in good health and good state of iman.
one main thing that i want to express here is

I MISS SOLEHAH BT MOKHTAR VERY MUCH!

it has been 3 year she left me. she died because of high fever. and the terrible thing is i don't paid any visit for her,
because what i thought is she will be fine for tommorow. But it's definately wrong. she died!

after i visited her in her house before send to mosque, i cried for whole day. i can't "khusyuk" in my solat,
i keep crying for whole day.

i keep asking myself why i don't visit her on that day?! why i don't call her back when i missed her call on friday, two days before she died!

why fasihah!?

Sincerely,i am not strong enough to visit her grave.  after couple of month i went there and i felt very sad because we can't be together again.

we're in diff life. but don't worry soleh, i will be there one day and i will meet u.

HAVE  u ever feel lonely after someone u love left u without saying goood bye?
 i feel it very strong! i felt empty after soleh left me.
i don't have freind who always make call to share our prob, tell our secret admirer, hangout to have a joy together!

i miss everything. EVERYTHING.
but allah is great! he gives me chance to see late solehah's face in my dream.
she always keep came into my dream and she smiled to me.
she doesn't speaks even one word. she keep smiled every time she in my dream.

16 feb is her birthday. and i don't give anything for her entire life before this.I just made a call and wish her through hp.

that's my way to show my love during her birthday. but it's diff for her.
she gave me a gift. the gift which still with me is a small pillow. i always hugged it every time before i sleep.

here it's!


                             she knew i love blue when i was in form 2 and she bought for me!

Allah know I miss her thus, allah know the best for me.
and for sure!

I will be "there" one day.

lets everyone put ur hand together make doa' for arwah solehah!
may allah bless her and place her in beautiful place in heaven!

al fatihah <3

Thursday, August 26, 2010

arwah solehah


SOLEHAH BT MOKHTAR ( baju ungu )

AL-FATIHAH BUAT ARWAH SOLEHAH BT MOKHTAR


16 ogos 2010

arwah pergi kerana penyakit demam denggi .

malam itu aku dapat berita yang arwah dimasukkan icu . aku tergamam . arwah tak beritahu aku langsung akan kemasukkan dirinya ke hospital . mood belajarku hilang . fikiran aku mula memikirkan kalau dia ..

aku matikan fikiran itu dengan berdoa agar arwah sihat .

tepat 1 pagi ,mataku susah untuk dilelapkan , hati tidak sedap dan setiap kali aku menutup mata aku terlihat arwah solehah .kenangan bermain di ruang mata .aku bangun berdoa agar arwah dipanjangkan umur .

selepas sahur ,aku dapat panggilan dari izyan yang suara teresak-esak aku dapat mengagak .


" fasih ,solehah sudah meninggal pukul 5.40 pagi tadi . "

air mata aku jatuh tanpa aku minta .hatiku sedih sangat dan aku tak sangka arwah tinggalkan aku semuda ini .
benarlah ketidak izinan mata untuk lelap merealti kenyataan .
selama dua hari aku bagaikan org gila yang menagis hingga nampak kelebaman mata .

Aku terlalu sedih hingga sampai satu saat aku tak boleh nak sedih lagi .


maafkan aku atas segalanya .dan aku halalkan setiap apa yang berlaku .rahsia kau akan ku gengam hingga akhir hayat .


aku relakan kau pergi daripada kau berada di bumi yang tidak memberi ketenangan padamu.



SEMOGA KAU AMAN DI SANA .